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Tuesday, July 04, 2006

I`m willing to break myself to shake this hell from everything I touch.
Currently playing: The Answer Lies Within by Dream Theater.

I hate how I`m unable to express my personal feelings on this blog, MY blog. Because I know my younger sisters and possibly even my mother read it. So what I do is that I`ll break up whatever thoughts and feelings I have and infuse bits of them into random muses. I don`t even know why I try since usually they`ll end up being so distorted that its primitive meaning is lost anyway.

I`m willing to bleed for days more reds and grays so you don't hurt so much, would you do the same for me? I guess not.

I`ve been sorrowful lately, but I`m not going to talk about my grievances in this huge perfect world where my worth is just miniscule. The song that`s currently playing is supposed to make me feel better about myself, about life, everything. Yet it`s making me cry. Why?

I want to see these feelings dance on out,
Dance among these broken fucking pieces of me,
Watch them spin across my face,
Watch it fall apart as perfect as before,
Watch the grasp slide out once again,
As this remnant past grabs hold,
Let your sorrow spill among the wine glasses.
To watch her fall apart is a beauty in itself.




12:07 AM