Remember the first dance we shared?
Recall the night you melted
my ugliness away?
The night you left with a kiss so kind
Only a scent of beauty left behind
Ah, dear friend I remember the night
The moon and the dreams we shared
Your trembling paw in my hand
Dreaming of that northern land
Touching me with a kiss of a beast
I know my dreams are made of you
Of you and only for you
Your ocean pulls me under
Your voice tears me asunder
Love me before the last petal falls
As a world without a glance
Of the ocean's fair expanse
Such the world would be
If no love did flow in thee
But as my heart is occupied
Your love to me now has to die
Forgive me, I need more than
you can offer me
Didn't you read the tale
Where happily ever after was to kiss a frog?
Don't you know this tale
In which all I ever wanted
I'll never have?
For who could ever learn to love a beast?
However cold the wind and rain
I'll be there to ease your pain
However cruel the mirrors of sin
Remember, beauty is found within
-nightwish.
1:52 AM
Many of you who know me will probably know for a fact that I was(still am) obsessed with Jon Jonsson since aeons ago; before he was crowned America's most gorgeous male model, before he came to S'pore and whipped up such a storm, before he had hordes of fans mobbing him everywhere he go, before he hosted on MTV wearing only a pair of yummy briefs, before he appeared on channel's 5 miss.s'pore universe or villa wellness.. well you get my point.
I supported him since Day 1 when ManHunt premiered, when everyone was rooting for hotties like tate, john, hunter blah. He was the only one who gripped me, he wasn't superficial like the rest, you know? He had depth and class and so much more other amazing qualities.
Well joe, what do you know? he is indeed deeper than he looks. my boy is majoring in astrophysics and I've just re-read his latest blog entry(erm april 21st 05 lol) and can't help but comment on what he wrote.
His blog entry:
http://www.jonjonsson.com/blog/
My Reply:
HELLO THERE JON. your latest post seems to be kinda old. you really should update. everyone misses you so damn much. anyway, i can't believe you're into cosmology!
I was dead set on studying it in the future but my dad protested too vehemently. Anyhow, i'm so relieved that some deep intellect does lie behind that pretty face of yours.
it's such a mess when you mix philosophy and cosmology together don't you think? that day i sat up the whole night. just thinking. of us human beings, then the vast sky as i look out the window, then earth, space, sun, stars, the milky way galaxy and the universe which houses billions of other galaxies and finally marvelled at how utterly small we all are- that revelation is always so mindblowing.
and then i thought about the life cycle of a star, from stellar nebula to massive star to red supergiant to supernova and then when it finally collapses on itself to form a black hole due to gravitational pull/imbalance. and that's exactly how the universe was formed-a singularity.
It's funny to think that we are all made of star stuff. Every atom in our bodies was created either in the nuclear furnace of a star or in the cataclysmic explosion of a supernovas.
Yes i think i'm quite well-informed about the origin of the universe, but what about it's eventual fate? will it perish in the big crunch or the big freeze?
but then again, we would have to worry about the sun first since it will expand after a few billion years and engulf our planet earth. Also around the same time, our nearest galactic neighbour, Andromeda, will start to crash into our own galaxy, the Milky Way. To think life on Earth must escape into space if it is to survive.. interesting isn't it?
It's amazing how many questions can be triggered off just by looking up at the sky. Oh anyway, i just realized its Prof.Stephen Hawking's 64th birthday today! =D
I've said my piece. It'll be neat if you could comment back. take care.
1:20 AM
In my opinion, resolutions are mostly personal. But the thing is, I have nothing to blog about. (ok not really i can blog about cosmology but then it will bore your brains out so yeah. and i can't blog about my cousin's birthday bash cuz i've not yet uploaded the photos.) Yes. Big BOO. So. i've decided to write about my new year resolutions. Ah. the thing is. They are SUPER RANDOM. see for yourself:
1. To make my bed everyday. (but then what would my maid do? lmao.)
2. To stop shooting disgusted glances at guys who wear pink. (bleuurrgh)
3. To succeed in persuading my father to quit smoking. (i swear daddy if you still don't stop you're gonna get LUNG CANCER.)
4.To stop hogging the computer, bathroom, whatever.
5. To remember to apply moisturizer to my face after the toner but before foundation. (damn i alwayys forget!)
6. To learn how to pluck my eyebrows instead of always wasting money to get them done.
7.To stop sending kinky lingerie or condoms for birthday presents. (its getting boring.)
8. TO GET OVER HIM. (it has been a gazillion years.)
9. To not get overly-excited(by this i mean giving a big yelp and turning my head in a thousand different directions) whenever i smell someone of the opposite sex carrying the scent of CK's Black Eternity.
10. To not scowl when i turn back and realized that person is usually very much in his forties. (ok. at least not in his face.)
11. To stop using the word "fuck" and other expletives so much.
Dude, you're seriously reading all this?
8:18 PM
10 most played songs on my ipod right now:
1. Blue- The Birthday Massacre
2.Kennedy- Kill Hannah
3.Pull Me Under- Dream Theater
4.I Have Become- Saosin
5.Welcome Home- Coheed and Cambria
6.Knife Party- Deftones
7.Creek Mary's Blood- Nightwish
8.The Divine Wings of Tragedy- Symphony X
9. The Blower's Daughter- Damien Rice
10. Does He Love You- Rilo Kiley
There. Done. Goodbye.
10:31 PM
It is rated R-Restricted 17 in the states for brutal scenes of torture and violence, strong sexual content, language and drug use but I really hope it will be an NC-16 here, although chances are it will not. Anyhow, I will find means to watch it; it looks too good to give it a miss. Check out the trailer at the movie's site, http://www.hostelfilm.com/ and while you're there, pop by their downloads section-their ringtones are screams of agony and pure terror. I was totally spooked out after hearing them.
Someone who has watched it said:
After the first 20 minutes, be prepared to be disgusted, surprised, and be sweating in your seats. This movie is NOT for a young audience nor is it for teenagers. The rest of the movie which comprises of 2 fairly long torture scenes that I had to close my eyes is very graphic being both gory and very violent.
Guys, don't take a first date as the chances are she will slap your face and walk out.
haha. ok that aside, guess who's the most HATED celebrity of 2005?
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Yeap. Miss ditzy-whorish-bimbo. No sorry i mean Paris Hilton. Let's see. Fell out with best friend(Nicole Ritchie). checked. Got engaged and backed out at the last minute(Paris Latsis). checked. stolen someone else(Mary Kate Olsen) boyfriend(Stavros Niarchos ). checked. lets stop here i am getting annoyed. seeee. no wonder she got that title. The winners in full:
Movie of the year: Charlie And The Chocolate Factory
TV show of the year: Desperate Housewives
Best actor: Johnny Depp
Best actress: Renee Zellweger
Best male artist: Robbie Williams
Best female artist: Madonna
Best band: U2
Best album: Kaiser Chiefs - Employment
Best single: Franz Ferdinand - Do You Want To?
Best celebrity couple: Heidi Klum and Seal
Worst celebrity couple: Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes
Best celebrity scandal: Kate Moss' cocaine scandal
Best new celebrity: John Legend
Most stylish female: Sienna Miller
Most stylish male: David Beckham
Favourite celebrity: Noel Gallagher, Oasis
Most hated celebrity: Paris Hilton
I am pretty satisfied with the results. Ok I'm out.
6:46 PM
This was taken opposite of CQ, at Riverside. The music booming could be heard loud and clear right across the river. 
The main stage area. Outdoor parties always rock more. :)
Eeeek! A creepy tall monster! Ok bad joke. He was on silts.Oh oh look at the background. someone's sitting the G-Max (reverse bungee)! neatt.
I wanted to see the much hyped about MoS, so we went there and took a peek:
And you wonder why the queue is so long. it stretched on for a mile ok! anyway i bumped into the guy from Ronin there. He looked good for an albino. (eh eh no discrimination intended)
Ah. Crazy Horse. 1st club in S'pore to officially introduce topless dancing here. Not seedy-looking at all right?! In fact, it looks super classy-As you can see from the ceiling inside; lots of crystal chandeliers.
The bar next to G-Max. Me and Gloria wanted to go for it but remembered we were wearing skirts which weren't exactly long. Damn.
Forbbiden City (Indochine). I guess this is the best-looking club? And which I also believe houses the best-looking crowd. I mean, the girls going in and coming out from there are so ridiculously pretty!
Okok. Back to the party.It was quite a spectacular sight. There were salsa dancers(super hot), street performers and percussionists.
The crowd having a blast and excitedly anticipating the countdown. 
Their outrageous costumes were so amazing. and oh look, party hats! so funky. i also wannt.
her expression. classic la. hahaha. she was supposed to look sexy darn. 
Speakers were everywhere. The sound system was ballistic. You could feel the beat in your bones man.
I tried to snatch the torch away but failed. lol. 
And it was NEW YEAR!! woohoo. There were also the dazzling magnificent display of fireworks at the stroke of midnight to usher in a brand new 12 months but sadly, no pictures cuz I was so in awe of it that it slipped my mind-to take photos. heh. 
Ahh. now the real party had started! ooo i see people wearing helmets, do you? LMAO. 
it's the monster again! it looks harmless now heh. and what a sweetie to pose for the camera. gracias! -blows kisses- 
Foam party woots! Ok not really since all the foam kept evaporating. Rotfl. 
They had smoke machines. awesomee. The people there could bust some moves man. all that hip-gyrating, all that sweat. woah hott. And this is where I stopped all that photo-taking. C'mon, a girl's gotta dance! ;)
Oh before I forget, you know how I was always bumping into Masashi from Pug Jelly(now known as Saw Loser)? Well this time I met SAM!! He was super duper hot I tell ya:
Tee hee hee. Then his gf came along. Picture a young Alyssa Milano. Yeah that'll be her. Damn pretty.Last Words:
We kept getting attacked by random people with foam sprays but it was all in the name of fun so, yeap. Gosh even now as I'm typing, Mardi Gras at Clarke Quay still have my memory buzzing, adrenaline pumping and ears ringing. Wow.
11:47 PM